Dream

Dream is your heaven of alternate reality

where your soul embraces your insanity

where your songs are sung for eternity

where you heart aches relentlessly

Take a step back and enjoy the scene

this is where you embrace your sin

this is where you paint the obscene

this is where you wash yourself clean

Dream is your memories screaming in pain

it is where your conscience go insane

it is where you have nothing to gain

but only to lose yourself in the pain

Dream, is a place you should just stay

Nightmare

How does your nightmare look like?

Does it look so wrong yet so right?

Does it make your mind feel so tight?

Does it make your soul feel so high?

Guilt on your left and conscience on your right

Believe in your fear and feel His might

Pray in your dream and hope will ignite

Forgive yourself and guilt will subside

Dreams are the filthy desires in your mind

Whispering your thoughts in black and white

Trust your senses when you lose your sight

Conscience will be your greatest guide

How would your nightmare look like tonight?

Hide

Have you ever tried to run, so hard that you would not stop even if you start to puke? 
Have you ever thought of disappearing, so much that you would rather burn yourself into dust?
Have you ever wanted to hide, so much that you would rather dig your eyes out?
Have you ever felt like running away, so much that life itself seems like an easy thing to give up on?

What would you do?
What would you do with those thoughts?
What would you do with those sadistic thoughts that are consuming you?

Would you embrace it?
Would you cover it up?

Let us run, away from the unpleasant truth
Let us disappear, from this miserable society
Let us hide, from this disturbing reality

Let us hide, from our own disgusting existence

Existence

.

How should I stop myself
from being the garroter of my own
from the eternal loop of Sisyphean
from the endless cycle of Uroboros

How should I prove my existence
if I never existed?
The thought of acceptance
evokes a disturbance on my innocence

I enjoy the nocturne of Nihilism
the fallacious song of existence
I loathe the very existence of my presence
quivering with the sickening indulgence


I lust for your lithe figure, such a filthy temptation for you to slowly devour my existence

Lone

Breaking the cycle of self-indulgence

Emptiness revolves around seductions

I'm too afraid to show my existence

Neither me nor myself nor reflections

Gaze into silence and look for guidance

Let me in you filthy little creature

Everything you see ignites your pleasure

Fuck insanity when I sew my eye

To blind myself from your beautiful lie

Orobas merely exists for our revelation

Utter madness ingulfs the goetic invocation

Triangle and circle are the key to evocation

Take me to the place where everyone cries

Guilt

Darkness was the road that lies ahead

your presence was nothing but a fate

Your existence was blurred and disgraced

yet deep down inside I was afraid

The loathful bond between metal and flesh

crucifying conscience in a flash

So just kiss the sin of remorse that I violate

cause' I adore that disgusting sound that you make

Empathy fades as I drown my conscience

Guilt is now a stain in my existence

I'm now being punish for my violence

for drowning my conscience into silence

I am sorry that I killed you

More

I can feel your breath

penetrating into my senses

excitement soars

rationality blurred

It's burning

yes

the glares you saw

the screams you heard

were the signs of my twisted mind

I can feel it no more

your breath

we've lose ourselves

feelings were obscured

No more pain

no,

more..

Watched

Each and every single day

You'll appear

with all the gorgeous clowns

watching them, silently

and I'll be here waiting

watching you

when you lie

Each and every sinful day

You'll be here

without the glorious smiles

watching them, silently

and I'll be there waiting

catching you

when you die

Why does it feels like I've heard it before?

like it's a repetition

.

Because the one being watched

was myself.

I

I adore the ones who can fly

this is the truth I can't deny

sadistic thoughts inside my mind

the smell of freedom makes me high

I like the silence of midnight

it makes my mind goes so tight

the sinful embrace of moonlight

makes me wonder why do I need to sigh

I'm obsessed with those who are blind

as they can't see the back-stabbers behind

I shall be the one who draw the line

'cause a paranoid should know no kind

This is the moment you should just die

Envy

Have you seen the Great Leviathan Beast?

The sensual feeling of voluptuous tease

Stare as desires in the mirrors increase

Your lack of esteem peels your skin boundaries

Glare at the potentness of human nature

The sorrow arises from the green anger

The resonance of a thousand caterpillar

Crawling out from your filthly little ear

This green is growing inside you

The social democracy is falling due

As you swim across the sea of needle

You are inflicting pains that are lethal

Sew your eyes shut where your sinful pleasure arises

Dust

Listen, to the hesitation of the dawn

Listen, to the desperation of the gone

You

are nothing but an unnoticeable dust

are nothing but an uncontrollable lust

Your silence is pure perfection

Your existence is gore pollution

Now

cry with your ears closed

die with your overdosed

Because gurD is your religious heaven

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白 · 树 #4

4#

7月 10日

我到底是谁？

“德杰， 德杰！”

当我还在想着我是谁时，一位中年男子突然出现在我面前。

“德杰， 你应该很好奇， 害怕和不知所措吧？” 中年男子以犹如同情的语音说着。

“。。对。。。 我。。。 ” 我简直说不出什么话来。

“不要怕， 我问过医生了，你只是因为头部受伤， 而暂时失去了记忆。”

“失。。失去记忆？。。。 头部受伤？。。” 我不敢相信。

他继续说道：“对啊， 是一场车祸， 你已经昏迷好几天了呢。”

“哦。。 对了。。你。。 你是谁？” 我问。

“你不认识我？” 他好像很惊讶。

他继续：“唉。。 这也难怪的， 毕竟你失去了记忆。”

“不。。 不好意思。。” 我说。

“没关系啦” 接着他继续： “我是丰远, 你最要好的朋友。”

“哦。。 你好。。 丰远。。” 因为对他完全没印象， 我只能这样说。

“好啦， 不打扰你了， 我也刚好有些事， 好好休息吧德杰！”

说完，那个名叫丰远的家伙就走出了房间， 不对， 是病房。

原来， 我的名字是德杰。

坐在对面的探访者， 还是以奇怪的眼神看着我。。。。

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白 · 树 #3

3#

7月 10日

“。。。”

“我。。 在哪里啊。。？”

迷迷糊糊的我，张开了眼睛，望着灰色的天花板。

充满好奇的我，　爬起了身子，　坐在床上，看着周围。。

我发现旁边躺着一位老伯，呼吸微薄； 对面，则躺着一位年轻人，　

而坐在他床旁的探访者，以奇怪的眼神看着我。

原来，房里都躺着病人。

我懂了， 这里是医院。

可是，为什么呢？　为什么我会在医院？　

我。。　我。。。

。。。。

。。　

我是谁？

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